THE FEAR

I shared a little bit recently about how I’ve lived with a constant fear of failure for most of my life. An overpowering, undeniable dread in the pit of my stomach that I am incapable of success when it comes to my weight loss journey. Of finally seeing something through. Of keeping my blinders on, setting my goals, and actually accomplishing them.

I was talking with a friend a few weeks ago about how we were raised. How we haven’t necessarily had shining examples when it comes to having a healthy relationship with food or our body image. Those formative years are, well, formative. Being told you have “thunder thighs” or that you actually COULD probably use to lose a few pounds after your brother teases you for being fat isn’t exactly conducive to a healthy self-worth. But I’m not here to complain about my childhood, because if anyone has ever had a perfect childhood in the history of EVER – you seriously deserve one heck of a gold star.

What I AM here to talk about is what you choose to do about it. How you can CHANGE. How you can take those old views, take the old you, and TRANSFORM.

Losing over 85 pounds has sure taught me a thing or two about dedication. About perseverance. About how sometimes you just have to get out of your own darn head and DO THINGS to change your life. If you’re unhappy, staying in the same place and allowing yourself to remain stagnant is NOT an option. Sticking to the same bad habits will get you nowhere and FAST. You will never regain happiness or find self-worth that way. And honestly, being constantly unhappy with yourself is no way to live.

If you TRULY want to make changes in your life and in your health, you just have to START. Decide where you want to see yourself in six months. In one year. Who is the person you want to be? You CAN accomplish your goals. So can I. Because honestly, nothing holds us back more than our own insecurities.

Get out there. Set goals for yourself. Get out of your own head, and out of your own way. Your journey will likely be perfectly imperfect, just like mine. But a journey is a journey, and there’s no better day to start than today. ❤